Empty without You

No Me

I just feel like BLAH lately

Count Yourself

Nothing is Sweeter than YOU

On a better note here...

There is more to life than loving yourself

You gotta learn to love somebody else...

And I can say this...

My heart if filled with love

for my boyfriend...

and I can proudly and honestly say

JuJu,

Nothing is sweeter than you......

Temptation is everywhere!

Temptation is defined as:

A temptation is an act that looks appealing to an individual. It is usually used to describe acts with negative connotations and as such, tends to lead a person to regret such actions, for various reasons: legal, social, psychological (including the feeling of guilt) health, economic, etc

temptation is everywhere.

No matter what it is that tempts you, you hold your own will to resist it or to fall for it.

 And in case you do fall for it, the consequences are evidently high,

and the benefits are low

and

SIMPLY NOT WORTH IT!

Temptation can come in different forms, and it doesn't discriminate in one's financial status, race, sex or even religious beliefs.  It can come in the form of calories, trouble with alchol and sexual. From a person having desires and sudden urges to cheat on a spouse, to an addict in recovery having withdrawals, down to our every day diet plans, we fail to stick it through the holiday season. Failing to have the self control needed in any of those situation, can only hurt the person tempted, as so it can only bring them further back in their battle of self-control.

Sexual temptations is the most common amongst men and the most dangerous, because the consequences of sexual sins are severe. We can’t just “recover” a relationship shattered by infidelity. There is a popular quote that goes by "You are only as faithful as your option" and while some men don't have the option to easily cheat, others have woman or sinful acts practically being thrown at them.  So this is the moment to set boundaries away from the danger zone, just to make sure that nothing happens even in our weakest moments. A boundary that may be safe for us one day may be hazardous to us the next, depending on our emotional state. So a boundary, if it’s going to work, has to be set for our weakest moment, not our strongest.

1Corinthians 10:13 ......Lord please help me to resist the temptation that has come my way, I really want to obey your word, give me the strength to walk away and never look back.

So why do we give in to temptation? We don't know. I believe God has created it in order to challenge us, the power of overcoming an urge or desire brings instant feeling of gratification to one's soul, helping us value our goal. But if self control is failed to be applied in what sinners describe was a too-good-to pass it up situation, then you are accepting the consequences that comes with it; such as destruction and despair.  God definitely did not put it there as a way to tempt you, and it brings us back to Adam and Eve, and the forbidden fruit.  Temptations are there, but so is your conscious letting you know what is wrong and what is right. It is you whom can decide your fate. No temptation has overtaken you. God is faithful and He will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able.

James 1:13-14 (NIV) When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; but each one is tempted when, by his own evil desires, he is dragged away and enticed.

 The obvious way to overcome a temptation is..... to simply AVOID IT.  Surround yourself with positive people, people who encourage you to do righteous. See something tempting? then look the other way, engage yourself in situations that are healthy to you. Only you know what your boundaries are, only you know how strong or how weak your "Will of Power" is.... But by removing yourself from compromising situations where you are influenced by others can greatly decrease the chances commiting a sin. Chose pride over guilt, Success over failure. Nothing is worst than living guilt and regretful life.

The Love of God

Destiny

Your destiny is not a matter of luck

It is a matter of choice

It is not something you wait for

It is something you search for

It Happened Again

My home live has always been somewhat complicated

Growing up I had a pretty normal childhood

a big family you might say,

full of cousins, aunts, and very involved grandmothers

My parents also have always been very catering

Giving me everything my heart desired

But there is an awful twist to my happy home

I have a brother

A brother that I try hard to forget about

A brother I do not speak of

and refrain from seeing and getting too close

A brother that has lived with me for 18 years

but one that I have never gotten to know him

When I turned 18, I felt free for the first time

I was able to move out and have my own life

not be confined to share a home with this man I did not know

who holds a title so close to me

but we were like strangers

Moving out of my parents home

meant I could now hold a grudge against him

I did not have to pretend everything was okay

anymore.

You see....

I have a brother who beats me

For as long as I can remember

I have been beaten by him

to mild and severe fights

It has never been normal

He said I would provoke it

but anything that comes from me is provoking to him

the anger and hate he feels inside

manifests into a rage

and an episode of violence towards

Me and

ONLY ME.

Friends and Family has diagnosed his rage as jealousy.

The beating has gone far back since we were kids

and it has only became more and more serious

as we gotten older.

Every since middle school

he has locked himself in his room

only to come out to go to school or meals

He never presented to have any friends

whenever he sat on a table around family

he was obvious odd ball

He has never gottten in fights outside of the home

or with anyone but me

So its clear to me I am his person of choice

the one who is 3 years younger

and he has some type of control with

For the last 18 days I have lived back in my parents home

where he still resides in his dark, locked room

It had been over 4 years that I have not spoken to him

and 6 years that I had not lived under the same roof as him

And yesterday it happened again.

It was only a matter of time it would happen

And now all I can do is get over it

and wait for my wounds to heal

Dr. said it would take a few weeks

Note: funny thing is, the image above looks just like him,

minus all the tattoos.

Two Types of Pain

"Everyone must choose one of two pains:

 The pain of discipline or

the pain of regret."

 ~Jim Rohn

Surprise, Surprise!

Surprise Surprise.

I have the biggest mouth of all when it comes to surprises

I can never keep a good thing under wraps

even if its just for a short amount of time.

But this time I did an amazing job

keeping it a secret from EVERYONE

my plans to fly out to Washington DC

to be there for my boyfriends

graduation day.

It was a decision I had made long before I left Georgetown

I knew the day I would reunite with my love would be to watch

him walk across that stage and recieve his diploma.

So in my down time in Florida, I planned it out with his lovely mother

She offered to pick me up at the airport and

opened her home to me to stay for the weekend.

It was just what I was looking for to seal my plans

and have it

 CONFIRMED.

Keeping it away from my boyfriend and friends

was hard,

I admit there were times I almost let it slip out

Especially when I would be getting ready for the trip

and I would be interrupted by a phone call from him.

So to make long story short.

His mother and I did it.

We pulled off a great amazing surprise visit.

I arrived on Friday, a day before his graduation day

His mom located him getting a haircut at his favorite barbershop

So we sneaked over there....

and to his SURPRISE its ME walking through that door.

His immitiate reaction was priceless.

He had a blank look on his face

in disbelief of what was going on.

He quickly got up from the chair

grabbed my hand and walked me outside

so as to not make a scene in a busy barbershop

(not that the surprise didn't already cause a little commotion in the small shop)

asking me 1000 questions at once

and hugging me to make sure this was real.

It was an amazing weeekend,

The next day his family and I sat down

on Georgetown's front lawn infront of Healy Hall

and had the great opportunity to support him

for his hard work and acheivement.

It was an unforgetable time

I could not have missed it for the world!

Justly, Mercy, Humbly

words to live by.

Amen

Class of 2011

CONGRATULATIONS LOVEY

on Saturday,

 May 21, 2011,

my boyfriend will walk across a stage

and receive his degree from

one of the nation's most prestigious school

GEORGETOWN UNIVERSITY

located in

WASHINGTON D.C

Being a student athlete isn't easy

in fact, if not double, than triple the work

of what is required from an academic student.

A student athlete at the very least requires:

dedication

discipline

motivation

responsibility

and

determination

And at an over achieving school such as Georgetown

it also required a lot of hours of studying.

 Only a few are chosen to hold the title of a student-athlete

and only a few of those are offered a scholarship from the school.

And when accepted,

these students are not just regular college students

They become students on a mission

A mission to not only be part of a intellectual group of young adults that makes up the student body

but to also earn recognition and success in the sport chosen

They are constantly a figure of

represatation of the University 

 That represantation comes

from winning games

to winning titles

to how you talk to the media and press

and also the way you carry yourself on and off campus.

You are immediately in the spot light

and cristimism, expectulation

and jugdment are what you can

expect on the daily basis from your peers

and random people.

And now-a-days with the internet

you are also subject to

being talked about by whoever wishes

to speak about you

wether it is in a good light or bad.

You turn into a public figure on campus

putting that much pressure in a young one's mind.

Between academic endevours and dedicational affort to a team

during practices and games

We must admit

Nothing comes free, and easy in this life

and

these students EARN the scholarship offered to them

Which brings me to this post

telling everyone know how proud I am of my boyfriend

for not only being the most dedicated basketball player in a tough conference

but still, making every effort possible to

 devote his mind into studying and being a great example of a student-athlete

He has never let a teammate or classmate down

when working on group projects

 he was a leader

expected nothing but an A on his work.

My boyfriends hard work inside and outside the classroom

has came to this VERY special piece of paper

and the title he will carry forever

GEORGETOWN ALUMINI

instead of him representing Gtown now

Gtown will represent him.

Amen!

And when you are a Georgetown grad,

nothing stands in your way.

YOU DID IT MONKEY BOY!

Class of 2011

I love you.

forever.

mine

God Knows Best!

God Knows Best

by Helen Steiner Rice

Our Father knows what's best for us,
So why should we complain--
We always want the sunshine,
But He knows there must be rain--

We love the sound of laughter
And the merriment of cheer,
But our hearts would lose their tenderness
If we never shed a tear...

Our Father tests us often
With suffering and with sorrow,
He tests us, not to punish us,
But to help us meet tomorrow...

For growing trees are strengthened
When they withstand the storm,
And the sharp cut of a chisel
Gives the marble grace and form...

God never hurts us needlessly,
And He never wastes our pain
For every loss He send to us
Is followed by rich gain...

And when we count the blessings
That God has so freely sent,
We will find no cause for murmuring
And no time to lament...

For our Father loves His children,
And to Him all things are plain,
So He never sends us pleasure
When the soul's deep need is pain...

So whenever we are troubled,
And when everything goes wrong,
It is just God working in us
To make our spirit strong.

GOD KNOWS!

When you are tired and discouraged from fruitless efforts…
God knows how hard you have tried.

When you’ve cried so long and your heart is in anguish…
God has counted your tears.

If you feel that your life is on hold and time has passed you by…
God is waiting with you.

When you’re lonely and your friends are too busy for a phone call…
God is by your side.

When you’ve tried everything and don’t know where to turn…
God has a solution.

When nothing makes sense and you are confused or frustrated…
God has the answer.

If suddenly your outlook is brighter and you find rayes of hope…
God has whispered to you.

When things are going well and you have much to be
thankful for…
God has blessed you.

When something joyful happens and you are filled with awe…
God has smiled upon you.

When you have a purpose to fulfill and a dream to follow…
God has opened your eyes and called you by name.

Remember that wherever you are or whatever you are facing…


GOD KNOWS

Without A Reason

If you are an old follower of my blog
( from a year ago)

 than you know my love life hasn't always been perfect.

You would know I have came close to losing faith in love
or better yet... I have came close to settling

with what was the worst relationship

I even came close to thinking God was against me

 Because one person couldn't possibly

feel so much pain from something so genuine as love.

The wrong one made me believe to love was to feel hurt

or that love was an obstacle course

and we must prove our love

by shedding tear and dealing with pain.

All and all I can say

I had a long road of struggle

I probably been through more than a regular person goes through in a lifetime

Being in love with someone that wasn't right for me.

Broke me into pieces,

and left no room for reasoning.

But then...
 without a hint, or sign

 my wildest dream came true

I reconnected with someone from my past

Someone so peaceful, caring and full of life

And today I am proudly to call him my boyfriend

aka my miracle man

We are in a mutual loving relationship

And I feel as anything is possible

This relationship shows me that love is not as hard as some people make it to be.

When you are in the infinite state of infatuation,

 a feeling no word or emotion could ever come close to describing,

you feel as though this life is worth living for.

You also fear that person,
not fear as in an intimidating type of way

but you fear ever possibly losing them, and the thought already brings you pain

I have learned that this pain proves to me that my heart

 has felt a happiness i may never feel again if gone 

I now know from my sufferings with the wrong one that
the time period in which i did feel what
 I thought it was happiness wasnt' really it at all.
In fact it was the opposite

There are only a few moments in life
 in which i believe we find true happiness,  

a moment in which everything stands still and
 every emotion thought or worry is gone,

 it's a feeling I get when i am with Julian,
 the one who is built as if he was made for me,

and I wouldn't trade the feeling I feel for him for anything.

in thi world....

 And when you see me cry now,
 it no longer means I am suffering over a wrong cause. 

Now when I do cry it just means I am in love,
 and devoted to keep the happiness alive,

for more than a lifetime with you,
but an eternity.

I guess no happiness comes without a little

prior state of sadness

peace.

Squirrel, Child, Greyhound

Kids do the darnest thing.

Hate the Distance

Don't get me wrong

My boyfriend makes me feel like

the luckiest girl on earth.

and I am extremely proud

of his many achievements

in such a short amount of time

since he has been residing in Boston

this summer while working on his fitness

But I gotta admit

I lost the sparkle in my eye

since we said our goodbyes.

I forget to smile now when I wake up

I am miserable without him

 I miss seeing his face,

touching him, hugging him,

and embracing all the love and affection
he gives me on the daily

Some of my favorites moments in life

are only by his side.

His company changes the mood of everything

With him there are no bad days

only great ones!

He is truly my biggest blessing. 

A beautiful man

with the heart of gold

who can effortless makes me the happiest girl on earth.

So excuse me when I say...
I HATE THIS FUCKING DISTANCE BETWEEN US

(thank God its only temp)

Fucking Insane

Absence DOES NOT make the heart grow fonder.

rather

Absence makes the heart go

FUCKINGGG INSANE!

Boo hoo! Ouch

My heart hurts when I am far from my boyfriend.

I cannot wait til

we see each other again

SOON

I Miss You So Much

Sometimes we have to be apart

 from the one we love

But that doesn't mean you love them any less

Sometimes it even makes you love them more

......
More than you ever thought possible

with your

Heart Mind Body & Soul

Before you

On a better note,

I love and miss my Julian!!!

I don't even like to remember what life was

WITHOUT HIM.

The Person They Swore

Life is too short for me to worry about

an immature,

cocky,

loud-mouth,

two faced,

ignorant,

21 year old boy

who believes he knows EVERYTHING

but if fact doesn't know anything.

Until he grows up and actually goes through some

fundamental life experiences

without his fathers credit card for once

he can shut his little mouth up

But until then,

this self-claimed "VOICE OF REASON"

has the nerve to talk about negatively 

about his girlfriend's own family

to other family members.

(Oh the wise one)

Plotting to put people against each other.

Won't benefit you in the end

nor will it buy you brownie points with the family

like u like to call it.

Well lets just put it this way.....

I DON'T HATE HIM

but if he was on fire

and I had some water

I'D DRINK IT

Little boy has no idea what

FAMILY is about.

Pure Insecurity

A Strong Word

As soon as we said Goodbye

Ugh this long distance thing stinks

for him and I

and it will continue to stink

from the moment we said out goodbyes

to the days we are apart

and counting til the day we reunite again

Being apart from the one you love

is one of the hardest things to do

but

I believe after this time of sacrifice

we will be

together forever after.

Christian Louboutins

From the Christian Louboutin

new arrival collection...

I present you my

3 FAVORITE PAIRS!!!

Note:

and this is only from this collection,

because I have about 10-15 other favorite

pairs from previous collections..

that is still i MUST HAVE in my book.

Ahhhhh

and this is the moment I drool over it.

One day ill have em all....

all i say!!!

:)

muahahaahahahah

(evil voice)

Dear MOM,

I truly believe I have one of the best mother's in the world.

and many of my friends who have met her can

vouch for me on this.....

So here is to you mommy,

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

I love you....

Khloe and Lamar

Call it what you wanna call it

I am a Lamar and Khloe fan-acholic.

A Little Sweeter

Dear 2010

We are far into 2011

and

I just wanted to thank 2010

for all my lessons learned

that made me a better person.

During the time of 2009-2010

I have gone through more

life experiences than a regular person

goes through in a lifetime.

And wether it was for better or worst

it has made me the person I am today

whoo hoo.

So thank you 2010

and everyone in it

:)

A First Kiss

High Five for First Kiss

Meet Elliot and Bowie!

My brother in law posted this on my wall via facebook

and I thought it was the cutest thing

Captured by accident in the most innocent form possible.

Now tell me,

Isn't this the healthiest first kiss you have ever seen?

Hello, Boston

Welcome to Boston baby;

better know as Beantown

home of the crowd favorite:

The Red Sox

Baseball team

is also currentely home to my

AH-MAH-ZING

multi-talented boyfriend

for this summer.

He has chosen Boston as his summer workout city

due to being a town with an awesome and energetic atmosphere

it is also where his top choice workout facility is located.

On May 2nd, 2011

Him and I packed out belongings and said goodbye to

ole good Georgetown University

Where we have lived the past two semesters together

We decided to part ways temporarily

I came to Florida;

to spend the summer in the sun

where my parents resides

and he chose Boston.

Or should I say

Boston chose him.

I hope to visit him,

a full summer without him

sounds like a lifetime.

But it is what we must do,

sacrifice ourselves a chance at a better future

together

forever

we will be

once we reunite

after these stepping stones

into our new lives

city

and

team.

Red Bottoms, Everywhere

All I see is red bottoms....

I am not sure who's closet this is...

and I not sure if I LOVE

or HATE

this person.

LOL

Her shoe game is absolutely ridiculously

AAAAhMAAZZINGGG

But how many shoes can a woman need?

Dang!

this leaves me

SPEECHLESS

haha

I am sure this is only

1/3 of her "shoe" closet

UPDATE:

I found out who this perfect closet belongs to...

and not to my surprise

it is belongs to my favorite

KARDASHIAN sister...

(drum rolls please.....)

KHLOE.

( I pretty much love, and admire her)

YSL Shoes

Today I fell in love....

I fell in love at Neiman Marcus department store to be exact

With their SHOE department.

I was one of several shoppers

fighting for the attention of.....

Yves Saint Laurent

They were all so beautiful

they complimented my feet so well.

They gave me the perfect height that I need

 to stand by my handsome, funny and perfect....

but tall (six foot 10) boyfriend

without feeling like a small elf.

YES!!!!

or should i say... YSL 

won my heart.

along with a few others Lambs and Prada shoes

Isn't it crazy how money can change a woman's wardrobe

and heart?

Having these... immediately became ALMOST a priority to me.....

Its also crazy how shoes and purses makes a woman feel

AAAAHH we are so easy to please,

 but at the same time

so expensive to afford......

UGH

This is motivation to keep grinding
keep hustling
to put food in my family's table
and gorgeous shoes on my feet

O.P.I

I am usually a bright color type of girl

when it comes to my nail polish

but lately

I have been ALL into the white tones

the champagne

the marshmallows

and the funnybunny

by O.P.I and Essie brands

Which has changed my boyfriends mind of

loving me with a french manicure

to loving me with some beautifully painted

 light white polish

Just like the picture above.

and I am loving it.......

Trust life a little bit

I used to believe in love

than someone came and turned everything inside of me upside down

so I stopped believing in love.

And just when I was ready to give up

Someone else comes along,

 and turn my life upside right

Heals all my wounds,

and compliments my every characteristic

He was a perfect fit in my life.

Made just for me

So I say,

TRUST LIFE A LITTLE BIT

Your time will come,

That person will appear

and your life will change forever 

to the better, in every single way!

I love life,

and

I love you, Julian

Apart from the one I love

On the Field of Battle

"I firmly believe that
any man's finest hour,

the greatest fulfillment of all
that he holds dear

is the moment when
\he has worked his heart out in a good cause and

lies exhausted on the field of battle
 -victorious."

-Vince Lombardi

Osama is Dead

The violent death of Osama Bin Laden will not bring peace...

Instead of vulgar elation, the immediate response should be prayers of peace

rather than celebration and joy.

"I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that."

                                                   – Martin Luther King, Jr.

Happiest People

"The HAPPIEST people

don't have the best of everything

They just make the best of EVERYTHING"

Miles in Between