Until You Found Me

Bootycall?

And this is what I call a BOOTYCALL

Friendship

“True friendship isn’t being inseparable, it’s being separated and nothing changes.”

What's a Hoya?

Hey Georgetown,

What is a HOYA?

While at Georgetown University campus, I been questioning a lot of students on the meaning behind the "Hoya Saxa" yell..... and I am yet to find an answer to it, there is not one person who was able to explain it clearly, or not question themselves on what a Hoya Saxa is. Most students that I have been around explained where it originated but still finds themselves confused in the true meaning of it. All students just translates the Hoya Saxa Greek word to "What Rocks"/... Ok, then "What rocks? really?" why is a chant a question.. ugh  where did Hoya Saxa saying come from? Its such a strange cheer, for a school whos mascot is a "Bulldog."

According to Georgetown.edu.....

No one seems to know exactly when or how the term “Hoya Saxa” was first used at Georgetown. Many years ago, there was a team at Georgetown called the “Stonewalls,” and it is suggested that a student applied the Greek and Latin terms and dubbed them “Hoya Saxa,” meaning “what rocks!” Hoya has since become a nickname for Georgetown’s athletic teams and students.

Hoia is from the Greek word hoios, meaning “such a” or “what a.” The neuter plural of this word is hoia, which agrees with the neuter plural of the Latin word saxa, meaning rocks; thus we have hoya— substituting the letter “y” for “i.” Before 1900, every Georgetown student studied both Greek and Latin, so there was no need to explain what the expression meant.

Still complicated, I get it, but I don't. Just like the students on campus, I don't even think GU really knows it how it came up and what made it stick around over the years...... but hey...

HOYA SAXA!!!!!!

Annoying Facebookers

Oh my GOSH, the article below was written by Brandon Griggs from CNN, and I AM SURE we can all relate to one, or more (maybe even all, 12 types) ahaha its all so true!

 Read

Laugh

Relate,

and

Enjoy

Facebook, for better or worse, is like being at a big party with all your friends, family, acquaintances and co-workers. There are lots of fun, interesting people you're happy to talk to when they stroll up. Then there are the other people, the ones who make you cringe when you see them coming.


Sure, Facebook can be a great tool for keeping up with folks who are important to you. Take the status update, the 160-character message that users post in response to the question, "What's on your mind?" An artful, witty or newsy status update is a pleasure -- a real-time, tiny window into a friend's life.


But far more posts read like navel-gazing diary entries, or worse, spam. A recent study categorized 40 percent of Twitter tweets as "pointless babble," and it wouldn't be surprising if updates on Facebook, still a fast-growing social network, break down in a similar way.Combine dull status updates with shameless self-promoters, "friend-padders" and that friend of a friend who sends you quizzes every day, and Facebook becomes a daily reminder of why some people can get on your nerves.

Here are 12 of the most annoying types of Facebook users:

The Let-Me-Tell-You-Every-Detail-of-My-Day Bore. "I'm waking up." "I had Wheaties for breakfast." "I'm bored at work." "I'm stuck in traffic." You're kidding! How fascinating! No moment is too mundane for some people to broadcast unsolicited to the world. Just because you have 432 Facebook friends doesn't mean we all want to know when you're waiting for the bus.

The Self-Promoter. OK, so we've probably all posted at least once about some achievement. And sure, maybe your friends really do want to read the fascinating article you wrote about beet farming. But when almost EVERY update is a link to your blog, your poetry reading, your 10k results or your art show, you sound like a bragger or a self-centered careerist.

The Friend-Padder. The average Facebook user has 120 friends on the site. Schmoozers and social butterflies -- you know, the ones who make lifelong pals on the subway -- might reasonably have 300 or 400. But 1,000 "friends?" Unless you're George Clooney or just won the lottery, no one has that many. That's just showing off.

The Town Crier. "Michael Jackson is dead!!!" You heard it from me first! Me, and the 213,000 other people who all saw it on TMZ. These Matt Drudge wannabes are the reason many of us learn of breaking news not from TV or news sites but from online social networks. In their rush to trumpet the news, these people also spread rumors, half-truths and innuendo. No, Jeff Goldblum did not plunge to his death from a New Zealand cliff.

The TMIer. "Brad is heading to Walgreens to buy something for these pesky hemorrhoids." Boundaries of privacy and decorum don't seem to exist for these too-much-information updaters, who unabashedly offer up details about their sex lives, marital troubles and bodily functions. Thanks for sharing.

The Bad Grammarian. "So sad about Fara Fauset but Im so gladd its friday yippe". Yes, I know the punctuation rules are different in the digital world. And, no, no one likes a spelling-Nazi schoolmarm. But you sound like a moron.

The Sympathy-Baiter. "Barbara is feeling sad today." "Man, am I glad that's over." "Jim could really use some good news about now." Like anglers hunting for fish, these sad sacks cast out their hooks -- baited with vague tales of woe -- in the hopes of landing concerned responses. Genuine bad news is one thing, but these manipulative posts are just pleas for attention.

The Lurker. The Peeping Toms of Facebook, these voyeurs are too cautious, or maybe too lazy, to update their status or write on your wall. But once in a while, you'll be talking to them and they'll mention something you posted, so you know they're on your page, hiding in the shadows. It's just a little creepy.
The Crank. These curmudgeons, like the trolls who spew hate in blog comments, never met something they couldn't complain about. "Carl isn't really that impressed with idiots who don't realize how idiotic they are." [Actual status update.] Keep spreading the love.

 Ever visit your Facebook page and discover that someone's posted a photo of you from last weekend's party -- a photo you didn't authorize and haven't even seen? You'd really rather not have to explain to your mom why you were leering like a drunken hyena and French-kissing a bottle of Jagermeister.
The Obscurist. "If not now then when?" "You'll see..." "Grist for the mill." "John is, small world." "Dave thought he was immune, but no. No, he is not." [Actual status updates, all.] Sorry, but you're not being mysterious -- just nonsensical.

The Chronic Inviter. "Support my cause. Sign my petition. Play Mafia Wars with me. Which 'Star Trek' character are you? Here are the 'Top 5 cars I have personally owned.' Here are '25 Things About Me.' Here's a drink. What drink are you? We're related! I took the 'What President Are You?' quiz and found out I'm Millard Fillmore! What president are you?"  You probably mean well, but stop. Just stop. I don't care what president I am -- can't we simply be friends? Now excuse me while I go post the link to this story on my Facebook page.

Change Your World

LV Campaign Ad

Oh Wowzers Mr. Louie

A close family friend of mine works with tourism in New York City, since he has lived there forever and knows every little inch of the city and adores and appreciates every details of the Big Apple. Well, he told me about the commotion this weekend on 5th Avenue, due to the LATEST campaign Ad on the showcase of the Louis Vuitton store. People that walked on the sidewalk of this store, were shocked and pretty entertained at what they saw.... HAHA and now I see why.....


Live models were simply licking the bags, obsessed with desire of many....


I honestly think its amazing....done to perfection, the Ad has EVERYTHING to do with LV, anything in that store is a consumers DREAM to own.

In the fashion week in New York nothing so original as this showcase.

Change, Accept and Remove

Change the changeable, accept the unchangeable, and remove yourself from the unacceptable." – Denis Waitley

Buried Under

Friendship must never be buried under the weight of misunderstanding.- Sri Chinmoy

Birthday Take Over

HELLO WEEEEEEKEND!

This weekend is the Buzz Bday Weekend Take-Over

How exciting is that? . . . It consists of everything a girls weekend together should be

Simply Perfect

Peace

"Peace. it does not mean to be in a place where there is no trouble, noise, or hard work. it means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart."  - Lady Gaga

Who is the Happier Man?

Messed-Up Fairy Tales

Fairy tales pretty much screwed up our adolescent minds. Our parents lied to us about unicorns and Santa Claus, only for us to discover later in life that it was all a ploy to get us to go to sleep before "Law and Order" came on. As we got older, the concept of "happily ever after" was slowly eclipsed by reality.

Pain Can Make Us Doubt God

Reality is.... We all face the undeniable fact that people do suffer, we all suffer in this life. I guess that's a fact of life, there is no way to avoid suffering, you can find sickness, sorrow, and suffering in all walks of life. It's everywhere you look. This very moment you can probably think of someone very close to you who is suffering greatly, and it just doesn't seem fair. And you can't help to ask yourself

 "Why does God allow it to happen? Does God even care? If God is so good and holy, then why doesn't He put an end to all suffering and pain?"

 I can say that, because I have asked that exact question myself, in difficult situations in the past.

Pain can make us doubt God, this I know by first hand.  Last night my boyfriend and I went to Frontline Arlington Church for the Youth, and the sermon was about this.... Pastor said, even through the roughest time we must keep our eyes on Him anyway.  But.......Of course, this is easy to say and difficult to do. But now that my suffering has passed, I guess  I can definitely see what he means, and that is God use us in ways we do not suspect. Perhaps God allows us to experience pain, so that we might more easily and lovingly sympathize with those who are going through it.

"If you’re going through hell, keep going." - Winston Churchill

The suffering and sorrow that you and I face today is not the work of an unjust God; it's the consequences of sin. We suffer because we are sinners. Romans 6:23 says,

"For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."

7 Helpful Tips to Increase Confidence

1.) Ask yourself, “What’s the worst that could happen?” Too often, we place excess importance on potential problems. We all have a certain amount of energy so let’s apply it to creating extraordinary relationships, advancing our careers and meeting our goals INSTEAD of wasting that energy worrying. Take action on what you have control over and minimize risks for what you don’t. Then invest your energy wisely.

2.) In doing something for the first time, imagine that you have already done it in the past. Close your eyes, then vividly imagine you succeeding wildly at what you are really going to do for the first time. The mind does NOT know the difference between something VIVIDLY imagined and something real. Make it vivid by involving all 5 senses.

3.) Find someone who is already confident in that area and copy them. Model as many of their behaviors, attitudes, values, and beliefs for the context you want to be confident in as you can. How can you do this? Talk with them if you have access to them. If you don’t have access to them, get as much exposure to them as you can. This could be talking to people who know the person and/or buying their products if they have some.

4.) Use the “as-if” frame. I literally love this frame of mind. If you were confident, how would you be acting? How would you be moving? How would you be speaking? What would you be thinking? What would you tell yourself inside? By asking yourself these questions, you are literally forced to answer them by going into a confident state. You will then be acting “as-if” you are confident. Now just forget you are acting long enough and pretty soon you’ll develop it into a habit.

5.) Go into the future and ask if what you’re faced with is such a big deal. This might be a bit morbid and yet this works tremendously well. Imagine yourself on your deathbed looking back over your life. You are surrounded by your friends and family.You’re reviewing your life. Is what you’re faced with now even going to pop up? That’s highly unlikely. Keeping things in proper perspective really diminishes fear.

6.) Remember that you lose out on 100% of the opportunities that you never go for. To get what you want, ask for it. I fully believe that if I ask enough people for whatever I want, I can get it. This is not necessarily true and yet it’s a useful belief. As you think about your goals and what you are striving for, how effective would it be for you to believe that all the people out there want to help you if you only ask? Whether that is true or not in the “real world” does not matter. If you find that belief empowering, I invite you to adopt it as your own.

7.) Disarm the nagging, negative internal voice. That negative internal voice can keep anyone stopped. To disarm the internal voice, imagine a volume control and lower the volume. Or how about changing the internal voice to Mickey Mouse? Do you think you could take Mickey Mouse seriously if he were criticizing you? Change the voice to a clown voice. The point is to disarm the voice by altering the way it nags at you. If I hear my own voice nagging me, it stops me. If I hear a clown voice, I laugh and continue onward.

Lord Bless My Online Friends

AWWW this is ADORBS!

Amen!

Break Away Like Beyonce

And I quote me best friend.....

"Don't Destiny's Child me and break away like Beyonce" -TheLindenBuzz

I could never Destinys Child her, but I thought it was pretty cute of her to say this.... :)

Look Bug, its Me and You... (sorry I have the bigger bag) lmao

Oh Brasil

Maybe its our Amazon

Maybe its our Beaches

No, Maybe its our People

Or Maybe its the Food

I guess its everything...

Everything about Brasil makes me LOVE IT

OH,  B R A S I L

How I love you, and Miss you daily!

One of thr hardest things to do is being away from the culture you love

!

Marriage Math. Really?

Do you agree with this? HAHA.. Hilarious

Some Marriage Math(s):

1. Smart man + smart woman = romance
2. Smart man + dumb woman = pregnancy
3. Dumb man + smart woman = affair
4. Dumb man + dumb woman = marriage
5. Smart boss + smart employee = profit
6. Smart boss + dumb employee = production
7. Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
8. Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

Guts V. Balls

There is a medical distinction between Guts and Balls.

We’ve all heard about people having  guts or balls, but do you really know the difference between them?

 In an effort to keep you informed, the definitions are listed below:

GUTS – Is arriving home late after a night out with the guys, being  met by your wife with a broom, and having the guts to ask: ‘Are you  still cleaning, or are you flying somewhere?’

BALLS – Is coming home late after a night out with the guys, smelling  of perfume and beer, lipstick on your collar , slapping your wife on  the butt and having the balls to say:  ‘You’re next, Chubby.’

I hope this clears up any confusion on the definitions.

Medically speaking there is no difference in the outcome. Both result in instant death.

YIKES

Never Settle

Never settle when you can have the best

New City

D.C Meets Me

Me meets D.C

Why, Hello HOME!

I recently moved to a different city, different state, and different country

My boyfriend is a Senior at Georgetown University, one of the most prestigious colleges around

So I decided to move closer to him

HELP

LOVE

SUPPORT

So we can give it a fair shot at love, and although some say we might be moving too quickly

I think we are just following the obvious.. and doing what we can,

by following what our hearts tells us.

I'm excited, its been a few weeks already

so far so good... yay

Hello New City

Faith in Yourself

"Throughout life, people will try to shake your faith in yourself. When this happens, remind yoruself that the only way they can succeed is if you allow it. When you walk down the street of life, always hold your head high and keep walking. don't ever let anyone shake your faith in yourself, because that's all you have."

Our Deepest Fear

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." -coach carter

What He's Judging You On

According to Cosmopolitan

When a guy first meets you, he knows you are on your best behavior and will be for a while, so he’s looking at certain characteristics that give him quick insight into what you’d be like with your guard down. Here, four things that tell him more than you think.

Your Friends
You can work your butt off to come across well—hot outfit, big smile, witty conversation—but you can’t do the same for your friends. Dudes know this, so if you’re out with pals, men look at them as representatives of all your personality traits—including the not-so-good ones. “I met a girl who seemed sweet at a bar. We chatted, and she invited me to hang with her friends,” says Stan, 26. “Within 10 minutes, I realized they were all gossipy drama queens, and I bolted.” If your buds aren’t on the same win-him-over page as you are, head to your own corner of the bar.

Your Laugh
Guys pride themselves on being funny, so they look for girls who can appreciate their sense of humor. However, there’s such a thing as laughing too much. “I went out for drinks with one girl who cracked up at everything I said, even if it wasn’t funny,” says Adam, 27. “It got on my nerves so much that I made an excuse to leave early.”

Your Drink of Choice
It doesn’t matter whether you choose wine, beer, or a cocktail. What matters is that you have a compelling reason for choosing the type of drink...and wanting to get totally wasted doesn’t count. “One night, I met a girl who really appreciated beer,” says Joey, 27. “When she explained why she prefers an IPA over a pilsner, I fell in love.” Being able to defend your choice shows that you’re smart enough to know what you like.

Cell-Phone Usage
You’re having a great convo with a guy when you get a text. What you do next—ignore it or write a response before putting the phone on the table so it’s easier to get to next time—tells him how you’d treat him in the future. “I met a girl at a coffee shop, and within 15 minutes, her phone rang,” says Seth, 33. “She just let it go to voice mail, which made me feel like, at that moment, I was her first priority.”

Greener Grass

"The greener grass on the other side is probably artificial turf"

We Are Nothing

We are nothing without our image. Without our projection. Without the spiritual hologram of who we percieve ourselves to be or rather to become, in the future. -Lady Gaga

The Root Of Everything

Like is watered-down love. Like is mediocre. Like is wishy-washy emotion of the content.

Athletes don't do it for the like of the sport.

Artists don't suffer for the like of art.

There is no I like NY shirt

 and Romeo didn't just like Juliet.

 LOVE.

Now that's powerful stuff. Love changes things.

Upsets things.

Conquers things.

Love is at the root of everything good that has ever happened & will ever happen.

♥

Unhappy Self

It's a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier healthier life. As children we are told to smile, be cheerful, and put on a happy face. As adults we are told to look on the bright side, to make lemonade, and see glasses as half full. Sometimes reality can get in the way of our ability to act the happy part though. You're hope can fail, boyfriends can cheat, friends can disappoint. It's in these moments, when you just want to get real, drop the act, and be your true scared unhappy self.

Eliminating Negativity

Positive psychology offers a unique perspective on mental health by focusing on the ways in which well-being can be improved. One of the most extraordinary discoveries – one which will continue to be studied for a long time – is the deep connection between the way people think and the way they feel.

Researcher and author Marcus Buckingham’s research reveals that the majority of people, rather than focusing on the things they are good at spend a considerable amount of time beating themselves up, developing and listening to an internal dialogue whose constant theme is, “You’re no good.”

By taking control of that inner voice and committing to a more positive focus, Buckingham’s research suggests that people will be able to achieve more success, improve their sense of well being, and enjoy better contentment with their lives. The most meaningful steps to take in improving an individual’s outlook and inner dialogue is to spend time every day recognizing your own strengths. By developing the habit of catching yourself when you have negative thoughts and using it as an opportunity to think something positive about your capability, you can retrain your mind and improve your sense of well being.

Shadra Bruce is a contributing writer for Mental Health News

Being Happy

Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple

 - to be happy. 

Maybe it's this expectation though of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to state's of bliss, the more confused we get - to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. Instead we just keep smiling - trying to be the happy people we wish we were. Until it eventually hits us, it's been there all along. Not in our dreams or our hopes but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar.

I Have Learned

As I've grown, I've learned several things. Life is full of disappointments & people you trusted will sooner or later let you down. I've learned that often those you love will love someone else & there's only one way to fall; fast & hard. I've learned that out of thousands of smiles, it takes one to touch your heart. I've found that words can be deceiving, but the truth always lies in a person's eyes. I've learned that everything can change in the blink of an eye & tears often come without invitation. I've learned crying can make us stronger & there is never too much love to go around. I've learned that prejudice helps no one & that weapons don't hurt people, people hurt people. I've learned sticks & stones may leave cuts and bruises but harsh words leave scars. I've found that every time you give someone a piece of your heart, it's a piece that you will never get back. I've learned the past is meant to be put behind us & we can't dwell on regrets, for what's done is done. I've learned that trusting yourself is the first step & that forgiving is remembering that helps your own heart more then theirs. I've found that family isn't always blood & everyone is someone's hero. I've learned life is unexpected & that God can do anything. I've learned some things aren't meant to be understood & that only time heals. I've found that imagination is our greatest gift & that we are meant to dream for a reason. I've learned it is never too late to fall in love & that being "beautiful" is all on the inside. Mistakes are our best teachers & everything happens for a reason. Only then can you live life to it's full & true potential.

It Is Between You And God

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway.

In the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.

Some Woman Choose to Follow Men

"Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. if you're wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you that it doesn't love you anymore."- Lady Gaga

Life Doesn't Give You...

"Life doesn't give you the people you want; it gives you the people you need, to love you, to need you, to break you and hurt you, to make you into the person you were always ment to become"

The Same Blue Sky

"In the sky overhead, it's the same sun watching us make the same mistakes over and over. It's the same blue sky after everything we've been through."
-Chuck Palahniuk

The Linden Buzz

My best friend's blog is way cooler than mine, her's is like a magazine! I encourage everyone to follow it

http://www.thelindenbuzz.blogspot.com/

No Matter What

Through Thick and Thin

For Better or Worst

:)

U be the Sun, I'll be the Moon

Oh There You Are

I am with the man of my dreams

I am proud to call him mine

and

to share my past,

live my present and

plan my future

with HIM

Love Me Back

He Loves Me,

He Loves Me Not,

He Loves ME

All Day Long

Welcome to my OUR SUNDAYS!

This image is exactly what I do on Sundays with the boyfriend!

I love Sundays, not because it is the first day of the new week,

but because everything feels a little special on this day

and. . . . .

I get the whole day to myself next to him.

As if waking up and going to sleep next to him everyday isn't enough

I love my boyfriend :)

She Wants to Know

Maybe, that's all we woman really want to know

Give This a Try

He wants me out there as soon as everything is in place. We speak as much as we can and his words always make me smile. The idea of being a proper couple makes my heart skip a beat. Long distance is never easy and with him entering his final year of College it's only going to be even harder but I need to give this a chance or I'll never be able to move on. Years of comparing everyone I meet to him has to stop if I'm ever going to properly move on. So I finally booked a flight, flew over seas, to live with him . :)

Can this all be real, can I finally get my happily ever after? (YES, i hope)

Gift from God

I don’t think I could ever describe the way I really feel about you. I am so blessed for being the one you chose to be with and it’s a privilege to love you and to take care of you. You know that your name means ‘Gift from God’ and it really is true because that’s what you are for me.

I want to be by your side forever, to lay with you and hear you breathing, watching you sleep. You’re so gorgeous! I never get tired of looking at you.

Love is a Cycle

A Little Closer, Maybe

I believe things happens for a reason

What is meant to be will always be

but noone said he couldn't sweep you off your feet

pick you up, shake up your whole world

just to have a a little closer to him everyday.

I Tend to Stare

Could Be An Organ Donor

Here is Your Key

We are better together than apart

Two lifes, sharing one space, one goal, one love

The closer we are, the happier we will be

forever after

next to him is where I plan to stay

 til my heart stops beating

Whose Hand Do You Wanna Hold?

My Everything

"I found the piece of ME that was missing; which is YOU. Now our puzzle is complete, we are a "WE"

TL+JFV= US

I'm so happy, and thankful for everything in my life, from the littlest of thing making any time of day a good time to celebrate! Life is so worth living, and it's even better when you find that other person that compliments who you are and completes you from inside out.

It might not seem like I have much, but I honestly feel like I HAVE EVERYTHING, it might all be intangible, but I do, my everything comes from feelings and fulfillment that can't be seem through the naked eye, but anyone looking at me can hear it through my voice, see in it in eyes, and feel it in my smile. 

I am exactly where I want to be, there is nowhere else in the world or anyone else in the world that I rather be, then where I am today, and who I am today.

I am so happy, I feel more than lucky, I feel blessed.

I am with someone who is worth giving my all and more, I gain my sense of happiness through him by just sharing a day, a daily task or even chore with him. I dont even know what it feels like to be without him anymore

He is  worth everything to me, this is the exact type of love that I been longing for, I couldnt have asked God for a better best friend/boyfriend/lover, I feel really stupid to have once doubted God's plan for me in the past. I was weak for losing my faith in Him because of the pain and struggles I had to live through.

I thought my pain was unbearable, unexplainable and incurable, I thought my pain and hurt would've left scars, scars that would always remind my "fall". But I was wrong, and now looking back on it I have no recollections of the pain, just the experience. and THAT experience was nothing BUT IRREPLACEABLE. It was exactly meant for me to go through, I choose the less traveled road for a reason, to face it, fight it, and overcome it, even in the worst ways.

Its true that hard times is what builds character because it created this more serious and loving woman that I am, who doesnt take anything for granted, not even friends... and the pain i went thru DOESNT EVEN HURT anymore, nor do I have scars from it. I am so happy that I cant remember what pain feels like, as if I never went through it.... does that even make sense?

 well, I have so many things to be thankful for, to appreciate, and one man to praise... GOD. I just dont know how to express it yet, I am ashamed to have forfeit my faith at a time I needed the most.  But now, my story becomes more than an personal life experience, it becomes a testimony, where I must admit I was wrong to ever doubt God's Plan for me, he knew best, not me, and the life he blessed with me after my successful fight in finding myself within myself..... is better than any life I could have wished for, prayed for, or imaged to have.  And through his faith in God, he found me, and we found ourselves.

This whole time, It was ME who was settling for less and a wrongful lived life filled with misery, not God; God never intended that for me, that is WHY IT felt so undeserving, and that is why I had so much struggles, but I survived, even through the worst of the worst moments. 

IM SO BLESSED, all i can do is GIVE, GIVE n GIVE whether its through love, favors, advices, help etc to repay back the countless blessing I have... I honestly HAVE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW.. I'm complete :) Thanks to you babe, I found the purpose of life;
 ily jfv 

Fill Me With Sunshine