My Favorite

Without A Reason

If you are an old follower of my blog
( from a year ago)

 than you know my love life hasn't always been perfect.

You would know I have came close to losing faith in love
or better yet... I have came close to settling

with what was the worst relationship

I even came close to thinking God was against me

 Because one person couldn't possibly

feel so much pain from something so genuine as love.

The wrong one made me believe to love was to feel hurt

or that love was an obstacle course

and we must prove our love

by shedding tear and dealing with pain.

All and all I can say

I had a long road of struggle

I probably been through more than a regular person goes through in a lifetime

Being in love with someone that wasn't right for me.

Broke me into pieces,

and left no room for reasoning.

But then...
 without a hint, or sign

 my wildest dream came true

I reconnected with someone from my past

Someone so peaceful, caring and full of life

And today I am proudly to call him my boyfriend

aka my miracle man

We are in a mutual loving relationship

And I feel as anything is possible

This relationship shows me that love is not as hard as some people make it to be.

When you are in the infinite state of infatuation,

 a feeling no word or emotion could ever come close to describing,

you feel as though this life is worth living for.

You also fear that person,
not fear as in an intimidating type of way

but you fear ever possibly losing them, and the thought already brings you pain

I have learned that this pain proves to me that my heart

 has felt a happiness i may never feel again if gone 

I now know from my sufferings with the wrong one that
the time period in which i did feel what
 I thought it was happiness wasnt' really it at all.
In fact it was the opposite

There are only a few moments in life
 in which i believe we find true happiness,  

a moment in which everything stands still and
 every emotion thought or worry is gone,

 it's a feeling I get when i am with Julian,
 the one who is built as if he was made for me,

and I wouldn't trade the feeling I feel for him for anything.

in thi world....

 And when you see me cry now,
 it no longer means I am suffering over a wrong cause. 

Now when I do cry it just means I am in love,
 and devoted to keep the happiness alive,

for more than a lifetime with you,
but an eternity.

I guess no happiness comes without a little

prior state of sadness

A Strong Word

Against the Odds

What MATH tells us

No Need to Explain

Dear Julian,

This is My Wish For You

THIS  IS  MY  WISH  FOR YOU

Dear Math,

LMAO

This is too cute,

Makes me ask myself...

"Why didn't I think of this?"

 when I was going through College Algebra I&II"

Oh Yeah Math Yeah

 (in a Pauly D's voice)

God knows I suck at math, but somehow I love it,

 its complexity and challenging methology

keeps me interested and focus

...

Maybe, just maybe

math has everything to do with the how we love people.

THINK ABOUT IT...

We go through a million and one steps to find a solution

to "X"

Sometimes we gotta find "Y" to get to "X"

after much understanding and analyzing each

and very step

we get it,

and the answer is all thr sudden clear

and somewhat easy

and makes us wonder

"why it took all those steps to get to one simple solution?"

..

now,

 plug it in to your life equation...

and think how math relates to you.

LOL.

#justsaying....

I Want To Love Someone...

My Heart Could Be All Yours

Oh Dear Loverboy,

Love always, ME

We Are Not Perfect

Love doesn't make things nice, actually it ruins everything.

It breaks your heart.

It makes things a mess. We weren't here to make things perfect

The snowflake is perfect.

The starts are perfect

But not us. Not us.

We are here to ruin ourselves and to break our hearts

and love the wrong people and die.

-unknown

A Vanity Love Affair

Vanity is pride, and pride is DEADLY,

it fools around with our emotions, using your brain against your heart.

Pride sets off mixed emotions, misguides you into a jaded love affair...

with YOURSELF, using someone else's name.

So you suffer, endless pain that won't go away...

Ask yourself... is it love that you are bleeding for?

or is it pride that is wounding your heart over the loss of once was love?

If you think giving up on a person who has already moved on from you will make you a loser,

or make you feel inferior or even ashamed ...

 than be very careful...

As this feeling is your own vanity and pride.

.NOT REAL LOVE.

And so as to not lead you in a battle for all the wrong reasons..

you will need enough strenght to defeat your pride,

 Thus, A reason can only be successfully supplanted by love,

 AND ONLY by true love.

Not artificial love made out of bitterness pride.

The Root Of Everything

Like is watered-down love. Like is mediocre. Like is wishy-washy emotion of the content.

Athletes don't do it for the like of the sport.

Artists don't suffer for the like of art.

There is no I like NY shirt

 and Romeo didn't just like Juliet.

 LOVE.

Now that's powerful stuff. Love changes things.

Upsets things.

Conquers things.

Love is at the root of everything good that has ever happened & will ever happen.

♥

I LOVE(d) YOU

One of the hardest things you'll ever have to do is to stop loving someone because they've stopped loving you.

Even if he doesn't like me tomorrow, I knew he loved me yesterday.

The wounds of love can only be healed by the one who made them.

Where my future leads, I don't know. But if you're not there, I don't want to go.

Sometimes the memories are worth the pain.

Every love gone wrong is one step closer to your own true love.

The hottest love has the coldest end.

Life without love is a life without meaning.

When forever is through, then I'll be over you.

Tears are the words the heart can't express.

You taught me how to love, but not how to stop.

The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go, and knowing when to say goodbye.

The only person who can make me smile, made me cry.

Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful.

Love is on the lips of many, but in the hearts of a few.

Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option.

Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart.

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

It's better to be with no one than to be with the wrong one.

Time goes by, life goes on; and all I can think of is why you're gone.

God can heal a broken heart, but you have to give Him all the pieces.

Wedding Bells Ava_Rich

Ava and Richard

Engagement Photo

Love is in the AIR....

(literally! wink wink TLC)

between

Mariana Ava and Richard

Where: New York City, NY

MANHATTAN

When: Today, August 27th, 2010

It is a Day to be Remembered!

Ahh these two amazing birds are schedule to get married Today, at 5pm in a secret, and beautiful location (extremely expen$ive too, yikes!) in Manhattan, NYC. It will be a beautiful religious ceremony followed by the nicest, most expected wedding reception of the year!!! and the SMALL fact that TLC Cameras will be on site, rolling and capturing EVERY MOMENT, is just an extra added bonus.....

AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!

Stay TUNED!
and

Cross your fingers and pray that my bestie WINS the HONEYMOON destination package

 

I know absolute love makes a lot of things possible. But still... Getting married is probably one of the most important decisions a woman can ever make in her life. It certainly takes courage to finally decide your man is the right one for you and to share the rest of your life with him (especially at these kids age, but love is love and real love EXISTS) ..And not just because they are having the perfect fairytale princess wedding   means their marriage will be easy, because it won't, there will be though times, rough patches, but it will all come with a reason. "Nobody said it would be easy, JUST THAT IT WOULD BE WORTH IT" .... The love, respect, trust these two people have and demosntrate for one another makes them the IDEAL candidates to enter a marriage of lifetime commitment.  I wish them the greatest happiness and a blessed married life ever!

Mariana, may you look your most beautiful and happiest on your wedding day!

 TE AMO AMIGA!

Live The Life You Love

Love the Life you Live. Live the life you Love."

— Bob Marley

How Can You?

Why, Hello There Feeling... I know you VERY well.... For years I have been involved with someone who has been heaven in my eyes, but hell on my heart. He was IS so wrong for me, but yet I loved him for everything he was and I accepted him for everything he wasn't. I felt like I was his EGO booster, he NEEDED me, in order to feel good, he took advantage that my love was absolute, and he appreciated it for the ego strokes.... And when I had thought I built enough strength COMMON SENSE, he would say those three magic words to make me want to stay longer and keep trying because maybe "he meants it, and even though he keeps me there for all the wrong reasons, he still needs me in order to get through some aspects for his life." The words I LOVE YOU, would go straight to my heart, skipping my mind where my common sense could have the chance to stop it for questionings.  It was enough, enough to turn my world from upside down, to right side up (for that quick minute, that is)! Why does that always  happens? Do I have thaaaat much pride to just allow to live in misery to prove to myself one day I will conquer that something, even if that something isn't what I dreamed of for myself.  I believe we do did love one another, but we knew that we LOVED differently, and that Unhappiness lied within us!

"Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you.I'd been broken beyond repair."

                                                               -- Bella Swan, Twilight
...

Well maybe that was it.... The damn three letters worlds gave me some self gratification..... "I love you," wasn't enough to actually heal my bleeding heart, but it worked as a bandage, to helped cover up the recent wounds and bruises until the next lie he told, the next pain I feel, and the next battle he made me fight (When I say fight, is fight to still stay, to forgive his mistakes and try to forget, I fought alone to keep the relationship stable, when he was the one doing me wrong.) I guess I loved us enough for the both of us.  I knew he was fooling around, but my only proof was called "a woman's intuition" .. in other words... A WOMAN'S CRAZINESS.. as he likes to call it.

Excuses for Happiness

It's easy to come up with excuses to delay our happiness. All the time I hear things like, "As soon as I get out of this problem, I'll be happy." Or "As soon as I lose ten pounds... Or as soon as my business grows…as soon as my child straightens up…" As soon as this... and as soon as that... But "as soon as" never happens as soon as we want, so we sit around being miserable until that small part of our life... allowing it to control and take over on how we feel about everything else.... I know this because I AM one of those people who sits there and puts my happiness on hold until this one little problem in my life is out the way, cleared or fixed... Well, call me Miss Cleo, but as soon as one problem leaves,,, another one will enter... It's the secret cycle of life. We  always find something else to complain about, even if you DO lose those 10 pounds you were so desperately in need of to losing in order to be happy this summer, you will find an ugly blemish on your face (that probably has been there your whole life, but you just needed something else to complain about..) so we for forfeit chances of actually being happy, to deal with more self-imposed issues... I guess the problem is that we worry too much, think too much, and demand too much from ourselves..

  Give yourself a break, you deserve it, there are probably millions of other people out there who would die to look like you, or to have your fair skin, curly hair, or good health.. whatever the case might be.  And if you don't believe me, get out of your little shell, or bubble you live in, travel the world so you can realize HOW SMALL YOUR PROBLEMS ARE COMPARED TO HOW BIG THE WORLD IS... So put your foot down and make a decision to be happy right now, there will always be something to keep you from being happy. Let's get rid of the excuses and make the decision to enjoy life right now, TODAY.

Strength and Courage

"Being deeply loved someone gives you strength, While loving someone deeply gives you courage." -Lao Tzu