Homesick.

It has been over a year

and a lot has happened in 

these 12 months [[and counting]]

I've been to a lot of places

seen a lot of people

and experienced a lot of things

but I haven't been back to Brazil all this time

I left [[Brazil]] with intentions of coming back

I wasn't prepared for my life to take such a crazy but wonderful turn

I didn't say goodbye properly, I didn't pack my things

I am a year and a few months in of missing a small part of me

Although I am happy with the changes 

and the special someone God has put in my life

[[my wonderful boyfriend Julian]]

he is the reason I am where I am today

[[ a happy place ]]

but I just can't help missing my family and friends

and most of all....

 missing the chaotic but beautiful country I call home

Some days I just miss it so much

that it literally hurts me inside

Destiny placed me so far from home,

and although I can't complain about a thing

[[live has been good to me]]

I can't help the tears from running down 

when the words B R A Z I L 

comes across my mind.

I guess every one that is far from home

gets a little 

homesick sometimes.

Oh Stick Shift.

They say

"driving a stick shift car is one of the best feelings for a car enthusiastic"

well I am not a car enthusiastic,

So for me it is was one of the scariest feelings while in traffic.

(YIKES!)

I first learned to drive when I was 15 years old,

I remember my dad taking me out to an empty packing lot,

 and we would practice almost every weekend.

But little did I know, I was a very fortunate driver

because I was learning to drive an automatic car.

And my biggest obsticle was the scary "parallel parking"

Well that was over 9 years ago,

and since then I've mastered my driving skills.

But in 2009 I decided I wanted to move back to

my home country of Brasil.

In Brasil, the only way to get your drivers licenses

is by passing a driving test on a stick shift.

So.....I enrolled into Auto School.

After hours and hours of expensive Auto school,

I had enough experience to get my licenses.

I must admit, I was NOT comfortable at all driving stick shift on the road alone.

I only was comfortable enough to pass the test,

(because I had practiced in the course, so many times)

Soon after, I went back to United States,

and never had an opportunity to put my new skills to the test.

and I thought to myself:

 "all those hours practicing with the clutch went to waste"

But remember that old saying,

 "everything happens for a reason"?

Well, my life takes more turns than I expect.

And right now, living in Belgium, has put my driving stick skills to the test.

I was not prepared to have been given an manual car upon landing.

I didn't even have time to refresh my skills.

I was so intimidated,

as I rememebred the feeling of panic and embarrasement I felt when

my car would stall in traffic.

Well after a few moments days of stalling in mid traffic in Antwerp

Today, is my third day driving.

And I feel much more confident and comfortable.

and guess what??

.....I'm kinda loving it...

I am so proud of myself for finally putting

those auto school lessons to work.

That was money well spent.

Those lessons came in handy.

Next step......

teaching my boyfriend how to drive.

(wish me luck...)

Beautiful Brasil

Extraordinary,

absolute beauty

and pure living

is only found in the such a land

called

BRASIL